It's the beginning of a New Year... the sun is shining, the air is crisp. The world is forever changing. It is my birth month. It is a time to rejoice in all we have as Californian's. Sun, Art, Openness, Creativity and Spunk! I think as I sit and eat my delicious vegan, gluten free, lightly sweetened with fruit Chocolate, chocolate berry muffin and drink my rooibos tea that I might die soon. This sounds morbid I know, but it is a Buddhist meditation. Buddha was very smart in helping us self centered individuals change our minds to positive. I have done this meditation many times. You think I may die today, many people are dying and at some time I will. After thinking of this for a while and meditating on it you come to the conclusion that I must make the most of my life. I must help myself become a better person and be able to help others. This makes you practice Buddha's teachings at every moment. (that you can remember too) Unfortunately, it is not the meditation that spurs these feelings but a talk with a doctor who is concerned about some lumps I have. So, I practice taking and giving (another meditation to tell you about later) on everyone in this situation and think many people die every day. When it's your time you must go. First, I cried thinking of my children and how sad they would be to not have a Mom anymore. About my husband who would have to live life alone. How sad my parents would be to have their child die before them. Then I said to myself, " I have to do everything I love to do quickly so that others can enjoy it." What would I want to give to others. Writings, Buddhism, food they can eat that tastes great, love, art, inspiration. There is an urgency to it all. Maybe, I feel this way also because I am reading a book called, "Precious Time" by Ace Remas (also my meditation teacher get book here) it emphasizes the fact that you waste your whole life doing something you don't like, save all this money, then grow old and too tired to do the things you wished to do. Then it's too late. So what do you want to do with your life? Are you doing the things you love? How can you help others? I think to myself, I have so many things I like to do, what do I choose, how do I make it happen? I have to stop thinking about how I am not good at anything, stop wasting time and do the things I love. After all that's what this blog is about.